New Day

Last night I got the words I've been waiting for from someone and it's no big deal -- no tears, no worries, nothing, just a smile.

So today has been a great day --

I got up at 7:30, it was good to sleep past 6:30 for once this week. Then I got ready,sent an important email, and began my long drive back to Carrollton, little did I know how long it was going to be. So I started out, going my normal way to work, Old Norcross to Satellite to Beaver Ruin to Indian Trail to Jimmy Carter, at JCB I have started taking a new way -- an access road south that helps me not sit in traffic, so then I got on 285, man it was a lil crazy but once I got past 400 it wasn't that bad.

Decided to give RC a call and check some stuff out. Finally I got back to school, for PREP -- it's a program where 7th graders come to campus and we show them the University and try to encourage the students to go to college or tech school.

I had this kid in my group who told me he wanted to live in his basement and get high for the rest of his life and had no want to come to college unless, he could play football, I really hope something I said to him got through, cause I would hate for his life to be wasted in that way.

After we finished the tour of Watson and UTV, I went over to the Z for the frist time this semester, I was eating lunch with LA Cheri and Pete....but while I was waiting, the coolest thing happened, Kryislyn was checkin the time on my phone and she was like hey Jamie, Matt's calling you, so I answered and talked to him for a few and told him i was gettin ready to go eat in the Z, and he was like hey i've gotta run, call you back later, I thought that was a lil odd, but then like 5 mins later, he comes walking outta the Z and YAY, I got to see him, it was the coolest. Anyway, we chatted for a few and then he had to leave, but no worries cause I'm sure I'll hear from him later on....
Matt's totally awesome --

but I'm not going any futher with that till something else is cleared up --

Well, what else -- Lunch was really cool -- I met West Georgia's new SOCCER Coach, he was really nice and it was good to get to meet someone new -- I love meeting new people --

Keia, D, and me chilled for a lil while, silly boy, he thought I had an insider tellin me about spanish -- oh my gosh -- i'm going to be up studying all night, YIPPEE......NOT...........but I trust that I am going to do well and can't wait --

have a good one --

PS remember Amy Yates' family because these next few days will be very hard -- I thought about going to see her, but I don't think I could, I will be praying for her family --

Knowing

Longing for, wishing for, wanting your touch. Hoping to catch a glimpse of you each day, all while knowing you don't even know I exsist.....

interesting few sentences that I read, what do you think about them

back again to things that make you go hummmm....

today was an alright day -- have had better have had worse, but overall I am satisified. Went to family time today, which is chapel, church, at THQ, Lt. Col. Laity, talked about how we should rely on God for everything and

we sung The frist verse of Psalm 89,
I will sing of the mercies of the Lord forever
With my mouth will I make known
Thy faithfulness to all generations:

which for all those Sallys out there is also known by
I will sing of the mercies of the Lord forever, i will sing, I will sing, -- it's that song that all bandsmen and bandswomen know the tune by heart, well ok one of the many, the first should be O Boundless Salvation

Thankful today for the police finding who killed precious Amy Yates she brightened my day by giving me the best hugs in the world. Amy will forever be remembered in my heart and if I ever go into a classroom, I hope that my students enjoy learning as much as she did. I hope Amy's family feels God's presence surrounding them in this time of pain and sorrow.

In the secret of thy presence in the garden of my heart --

Prayers for Amy's family, for the students and teachers and staff at Central Elementary School, and for the 12 year old who is thought to have killed Amy and his family.....

New life -- I am your child thru faith in Christ I've been baptised in him and I've put on new life, there's freedom here tonight
QP3 lyrics

link

Yay, now the link works for the earlier post

Knowing

So So So So --
Today day began as quick as yesterday ended.....last night was good, I stayed in my MEDT class and talked with my professor, ya know she's been through a lot, but she's so awesome, Dale is one of the best professors I've had at West GA. She, Christy, and me talked about what all had been going on and how the world has changed so much --

Today was fun -- I worked really hard and now I have a final to finish argh and then friday i have my spanish final, oh my gosh ya'll I'm so scared about it -- i really don't know what I'll do if I don't do well on it -- argh

Well, the link for today I hope it works --

I am going to go for a bit but I promise there will be another post really soon -- cause there's a lotta things to talk about -=- ie changes I'm making things i'm doing and all that stuff

God’s Will

God’s Will is what a Christian always hopes for in their life. You can hope for His Will, but until you are willing to give up yourself and follow Him through all circumstances it can not be done. God wants you to rely on Him for everything and no matter what He is going to love you and never leave you.
When you realize that you are the clay and God is the potter. You know you must be molded in the eye of the potter. In other words God is the potter and when we are willing to give our entire life, God molds us into what He wants us to be. You find God’s Will for your life by spending time with Him in prayer and Bible Study. You have to have Faith that God is going to provide his will for your life when you submit to Him.
Romans 12:2 says “Don’t cope the behaviors and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person…and you will know how good and pleasing and perfect His will really is.” This tells us to surround ourselves with people who are willing to rely on God in all circumstances
Romans 8:31-32 says “So what should we say about this? If God is with us, no one can defeat us. He did not spare His own Son, but gave him for us all. So with Jesus, God will surely give us all things." This tells us to focus on God, because with him no one can defeat us.
2 Timothy 1:7 says “God did not give us a spirit that makes us afraid, but a spirit of power, and love, and self-control.” This tells us to challenge what makes us afraid and to take chances if you fell led to.
God sent Jesus, his son, to die for our sins and to rise again so that we the people here on earth would be able to have life after death. That life is only available to us after we accept Jesus Christ into out hearts. My challenge to you today is to Try God. I mean if you are at the bottom or at the middle and can not see a way back to the top pray to God and ask him to give you guidance for His Will in your life. You will be amazed how much He provides for you with just you asking.

This is a sermon that I wrote a few years ago -- I thought it was approiate for today -- anyway -- I'm going to be true to myself, strive for God's Will in my life, include God in all my decisions and allow God to have total control of my life and allow him to move through me and with me.....God you're amazing

SAD

So I just was watchin the news and this girl went missing here in Carrollton, well they found her, but she was dead. When I heard her name and it triggered something in me...."Amy Yates"......why did I know her name. Then I pulled up her picture online from www.wsbtv.com and saw her, it was her, a child who I taught at Central last year. I don't know what to do... I mean what's my correct response, should I go up to the school and talk to the teachers, I really don't understand any of this, I mean why did she have to die, I know it's part of God's plan, but seriously I really don't understand -- anyway, keep her family in your prayers and all of her classmates because i know they're going to take it really hard.

Prayers for the Yates family

bloog left open.....

so i decided to post that she has busy hands at the moment. ha ha ha.
just joking i love my roommate......................SOMETIMES! lets just write

sorry everyone I had to edit this one :-)

Answer to a previous post

So today over lunch Keia and I were talking and she was tellin me about ribs, humm, interesting subject over lunch --

unbenounced to her, she answered a question that I posted in my blog back in October
Thursday, October 23, 2003
if you always don't marry your soul mate, then why is it necessary for you to meet them?

You have to meet them to give back their rib, because you really don't need it anymore, right?

Anyway, now i'm workin on my french oral final, argh I don't think I'll ever get it memorized.

4 am

So it's 4 am and I came over to Row to finish my spanish paper with Jahazel, how happy am I that it's all finished now, seeing as it only took me like an hour and a half to write my part of it. YAY!!!! That was my last spanish paper for at least a week or so, cause I'm going to have a whole butt load of them in Mexico -- but I'm not complaining.

So Matt and I watched Patch Adams, whoa, kinda funny sad movie, I wasn't really sure what emotion I was suppose to be going through at certain parts of the movie. I do have to say that the scene where the man was dying with cancer, was very touching because just last May I lost a very important person to in my life, Inez "Innie", I sure do miss her. And seeing that scene brought back memories of her and my Aunt Brenda, who died when I was a senior in high school. It's crazy looking back and seeing how many people I've lost to this horrible disease. Here's a small list, I'm sure I won't remember them all, Brig. Ruth Hanson, Brenda Hodge, Innie Marlow -- after Innie passed away they told us it was hereditary in my family, now that's something that I pray will never touch anyone in my family ever again.

Well, Innie, Brenda, and Brigd Ruth, I miss you all and love you all!! You all had an important impact on my life and helped me to become what I am today -- thank you and I hope that you're proud of what you see when you look down on me.

Thoughts and prayers unitl another day begins.......

Turns around

So tonight really is starting to look up!!!! Gone to ,humm, bet you'd like to know to who's house, anyway it's a totally awesome guy's, MC, house and he always makes me smile. Beats the heck outta something I've been experiencing lately.

Friends

So this picture is of Ann Beth, Keia, and Me. It's really good to have friends that you can depend on, I mean I know we've all been through some crap, but we'll always be there for each other. You girls are totally freakin awesome!!!

Same crap

Ya know I don't know why -- but it always suprises me :-(

Miss

I miss
the way you hold me
the way you kiss me
the way you make me feel as if nothing else in the world matters
Will you come back?
or are you gone forever?
do you just need time, if so please tell me, you said I was the best, why won't you stay with me?

Terms

so i've finally come to terms that this person doesn't want me in their life and it's really hard -- like i almost just wanna cry

-- i'm just destined for the ones that will always end up hurting me

Keia

So I got back to school and found a note "Jamie I had to go to the ER my mom came and got me, I'll see you Sunday night"

My roommate has been like super sick and she went to the ER, I really hope she's ok, I haven't gotten to talk to her about it yet though.

Please everyone keep her in your Prayers!!!

Today, Wednesday

I had pizza for dinner tonight then came upstairs to chill and vibe for a few...then I was talkin to Lindsay about changing to another weblog thing, she talked me outta it -- as only she could hehehe....

Lindsay and I had some rough times, my bad my fault -- but I think we're becoming 'friends' again, it will never be the same, but at least we talk now, right?

Then she showed me this totally awesome thing photobucket.com I'm gonna have all kinda of great pics, she even told me how she puts the pics into her blog, awesome sharing that stuff -- good thing you figured it out on your own right?

Anyway, here goes my first attempt to post a pic it's me and my nephew Jayden, he's the cutest kid in the world!!!!

Tuesday

Tuesday was a whole lotta Fun. Worked, drove back to school went to the Ambassador social -- I won the "NUTTY AWARD" for 03-04 me nutty, who knew? lol I crack myself up sometimes. Oh my gosh after all that fun Keia and I were driving back to campus and oh my the SUNSET was AWESOME -- I took the best pictures that I've ever taken in my entire life, whoage --

Then we went to wal mart and I got my stuff stuff for Gabriela's project, hehehe, see I'm still not telling you

And then I watched West GA make it on the news yet again

Then went and chilled with _-_- for a while, people shall remain nameless, but I had a lotta fun came home and went

Monday

Monday Monday Monday

Whoa yesterday was just one of those days --

I went to class, French then Spanish, then went and got a letter of recommendation from Kari, she's the best professor.

Drove to work, worked for a bit, drove to sis's -- decided that I wanted to cook dinner -- YUMMY it was really good..... can't wait till I can do it every night.

Went out -- but first had to call Lind to find out about contacts == who knew about all that them == only you == THANKS

Enjoyed hanging out for a bit, then I went swimming -- oh my gosh it was soooooo cold, but eventually I got warm or numb, my vote would be numb, lol -- I gotta tighten up on my fighting skills, eh?

Today, was really a lotta fun

I went to work, but didn't have a computer, so I couldn't do all my work that I needed to get finished today --argh

Then I started helping Robin with her work, oops then it was coffee break time, YIPPEE for break --

After break I went up and spoke with Roni for a bit -- it was great I really miss being around her and actually gettin to interact in each other lives.

THen I had lunch with Ms. Carrie, Major Abby, Claudia it was so much fun we went to this El Salvadorian resturant, ooooooooo my goodness it was so great -- YUMMY --

I'm really gonna miss these folks at work when I leave ::sheds a few tears:: love you guys

The Song for the day

OFFICALLY, I'VE GOTTEN THIS SONG STUCK IN MY HEAD AND MY ROOMMATES HEAD ALL DAY IT'S AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, YOU JUST GOTTA LOVE THIS SONG,


Norah Jones
Come Away With Me

Come away with me in the night
Come away with me
And I will write you a song

Come away with me on a bus
Come away where they can't tempt us
With their lies

I want to walk with you
On a cloudy day
In fields where the yellow grass grows knee-high
So won't you try to come

Come away with me and we'll kiss
On a mountaintop
Come away with me
And I'll never stop loving you

And I want to wake up with the rain
Falling on a tin roof
While I'm safe there in your arms
So all I ask is for you
To come away with me in the night
Come away with me

GETTIN CRUNK

I know that i've been updating this like crazy these days, but hey i had time off from work and was actually able update on the day things happened, and as far as all the stuff from Saturday -- it was ummmm -- _-_-_-_-_-_-_ yeah can't go any further.

So this weekend, I had a lotta fun here are some fun songs that we enjoyed while we were hanging out,

TIPSY - J-KWON
COME AWAY WITH ME - NORAH JONES
BLAME IT ON THE RAIN - MILI VANILLI
BYE BYE BYE - NSYNC
FREAK-A-LEAK - PETEY PABLO
COME AWAY WITH ME - NORAH JONES
HEY YA - OUTKAST
COME AWAY WITH ME - NORAH JONES

CAN YOU TELL WE'VE LISTENED TO QUITE A BIT OF NORAH JONES TONIGHT, BUT COME AWAY WITH ME SEEMS TO BE STUCK IN OUR HEADS FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!

my friend Sarah

My friend Sarah from Toccoa Falls college just told me Gainesville was Imported Mexico, never thought about it being in a bottle, good one. :-D

Can't wait 20 days until I leave for MEXICO, it's going to be sooooooo much fun.

Visitation Day

So after all the stuff that went on last night -- it actually turned out to be pretty fun -- if I may say so ;-) Things weren't as bad as they seemed and I ended up having a lot of fun -- but that's no suprise cause I always have fun with you :-D I just wish I didn't have like headache or crick(spelling) in my neck OUCH!!!

Anyway, so today was Visitation Day it was really fun except for the fact that I was super tired, I got some really awesome pictures and I can't wait to see how the project comes out. Ambassadors if I didn't get a pick of you, I need one quick fast and in a hurry.

What to do for the rest of the night, I came in and slept for a good 2 hours so that means I've now had 6 hours of sleep so that's good not as grouchy anymore, hehehe, me grouchy, never can you imagine that one?

Well, as always holla if you need me

Sometimes

Sometimes I just wanna SCREAMMMMMM AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Anyway it's always good to feel invisible, right, every-now-and-again it's healthy right?

Ok now I feel better, now i'm going to take a candle light bath,

Told

So I just told him - and now I feel horrible, like I just want us to be together and fate just won't let it turn out, I mean have you ever 'loved/liked' someone for so long that you feel as if you will never feel the same about someone else, but I guess now comes that song again, Movin on, it's going to be so hard because I honestly don't think that he feels the same way about me, now I have to see him all day tomorrow feeling like a complete idiot and so STUPID,

Honestly, Truly, I AM IN LIKE FOR YOU BECAUSE LOVE IS TOO STRONG OF A WORD EVEN IF IT DOES DESCRIBE MY FEELINGS CORRECTLY.

Pissed off

So -- not only do I look like a complete idiot, I feel like a complete FOOL -- I mean how many times am I going to fall for this f-in game, it's like i'm one of those stupid sticky toys you could get outta a candy machine when you were younger.

Concert

So last night I went to the Band Symphony Concert and it was so great. I totally enjoyed it. I totally enjoyed the Jazz Percussion Ensemble whoa, great job you guys and gals. I wasn't really lookin forward to having to sit alone, and I didn't have to, I sat with Mj. Broome that was fun, cause there was a bit of funny stuff going on in the program and the hard songs they played. And then there was this girl who was at the concert to support her younger brother and to write a report for her music class, whoa girl, how'd you get this far in the semester and not know what a trumpet is, it was so funny and then i was like ok, does she not know that she shouldn't get up in the middle of a piece and go out and come back in, in the middle of another, AHHHHHHHH, why aren't the professors teaching this in their survey classes?

Well, there's not much else to say, but I always find trouble for myself, good going. And the trouble is always so much fun,

BIGGEST SUPRISE EVER

Last night I went to the Campus Awards with Leigh Ann, Cheri, and Ann Beth. LA had told me that she thought Ambassadors might be winning some kinda award, so she asked me to go with her. Little did I know that she was talking about me winning an award, I couldn't believe it. And on top of everything, she had gotten in contact with my mom and so my family came, Jennifer, Jill, Moma, and Jayden. After I got my award I called one person, hoped they'd be happy for me, which they were, just in their own way, :-? at least I hope.........

Then I took them on the Tour-de-Carrollton, to see where my house is. That was exciting. And they were all like that's so far out, I can't believe ya'll found this place.

Then we met Danielle at Applebees for a lil family get together and it was so much fun..

On the guy front ------ARGH-----------ARGH------------ARGH-----------ARGH BOYS STINK. Anyway no more of that soap box. Gotta get back --

Humm

So I really wanted to see you yesterday, but things came in the way -- I really wanted to see you this morning, first thing, it wasn't happening. So I'll settle for a quick phone call and just a moment to hear your voice. To hear that you are so happy that it's me on the other end of the line. I never knew another person could make me happy, but I'm glad that you came along, even if nothing's going to develp outta 'this' People say that I'm "TROUBLE" and I say well you can't always be good or life will be too boring. Am I right? I don't see myself as trouble, I see myself as spontaneous and doing whatever you suggest. ::jealous:: maybe just a bit,

Yes, I'll take your offer, when can I start, I'm always looking for a new job, because you can't stay in the same place for to long you get to comfortable. HEHEHEHE, too bad I can't start until after August, because I leave for Mexico in 28 days and come back and go straight to camp.

My darling, your eyes, have captured me, I'm glad we both took a different way to work that day, and just happened to be at the right place at the right time.

Longing for Wednesday and Friday when I get to gaze into your eyes one more time.

Expect the unexpected

So right when I was giving up you gave me a reason to believe again. How amazing is that. And another job offer, whoa, totally unexpected. Humm, there you go again makin me say that when I have no clue why I'm even saying it when you're not around.

Everything's a learning experience

So learning is good, right? Maybe. I keep telling myself that everything I've been through this past year is for a reason, but a lot of the time it's really hard to believe it. Like tonight I was driving back to school and this song from my LoneStar Cd came on and completely made me break down and cry, I was like a baby just because it made me remember how hurt I had been. But I honestly thought I had moved on and that I was knumb to that feeling that creeps up on me sometimes.

Last week, I met this totally awesome guy, but I couldn't persue anything with him because of the simple fact of one statement -- it brought back everything from the past, it was like a ghost calling me -- whoa talk about freezing up and not having a word in my mouth, seriously you guys, not a word, I was like a deer caught in the head lights, I couldn't move, couldn't say a word. And then of course, he wanted to know what was up with that, and I couldn't explain. Anyway, we met up and chatted a bit but -- no news, hummm -- look at you, you even make me go humm when you're not around, how'd you manage to do that. You're such humm -- just can't say it....it's so much fun.......it's forbidden.......it's it's whoa........So I figured out why you sounded so familiar sure do wish I could tell you.

So I finally decided that the Soap Opera was over, I don't care anymore and no one but LA knows what I'm talking about because it's our code, that sounds so elementary, but it's so funny. I just am not going to stand for all the crap anymore. YIPPEE -- I'm free I'm free

OHHHH NEWS
RALLY ON WEST GEORGIA'S CAMPUS TUESDAY AT 2 IN THE AFTERNOON TO SUPPORT JASON B ALLEN, THE RIGHTFUL WINNER OF OUR RECENT STUDENT GOVERNMENT ELECTIONS AND IS BEING INVESTIGATED FOR NOT FOLLOWING THE RULES, WHAT THE HECK IS THAT ABOUT, I'M SO UPSET, HE WOULD BE THE BEST PRESIDENT SGA HAS EVER SEEN AND EVERYONE SHOULD COME UP AND SUPPORT HIM, JASON I'M BEHIND YOU 150% OF THE WAY, WHATEVER I CAN DO LET ME KNOW AND I'M THERE, POSTERS, SIGNS, LETTERS, PETITIONS, ANYTHING........I'M THERE....

Fantom

Like a fantom voice in the wind, you're gone.

Never thought it'd happen like it did, but no worries I'm not dying to see you or anything like that.

Anyway today is EASTER -- the day JESUS CONQUERED DEATH AND AROSE FROM THE GRAVE -- it's been a really awesome day.

Trust

A lot has been happening the past week, I don't know where to begin, I hope something good turns out though cause I don't want anymore JUNK. So I've got like a month left of work at THQ and a month before Mexico -- I'm super excited about Mexico, but leaving THQ will be hard, I've developed many friendships and all that jazz while I've been there. You guys/girls rock my face off. You are truly awesome people and don't forget about me just cause I'm coming back to Carrollton to work and try to get a solid life.

Trust is something that is unattainable when it comes to certain people.

"Dang you sure can pick 'em, Jamie" comment by my roommate and my office mate, you girls sure know me well.

Anyway, here's my boredom from class tonight from 5:30-8, it's totally random thoughts that might deal with the same subject.

Random meeting
instant connection
bunch of flirting
knowing it's wrong
but wanting so bad
you, you just give in
nuff said, I don't think so
Eyes that tell the story of your life
Yet Sparkle at my smile
The story is of things unknown of hurting and longing for the right touch
Years gone by with no stability

Amazing likeness to past involvements
words that can make you STOP BREATHING
I never knew 3 words could bring back everything I ever felt for someone
You only knowing me for a matter of days have managed to make me remember everything, but have made it all fade away and become ready for new memories
Not knowing where we stand, where we'll meet again, or if it's real

Carpe diem is how we should live our lives
let's run away
foresake everything, count all as loss and run
we can have a new life one with no past
no one will know where we came from or where we're going
are you up for it?

New Way

Today's a great day, I'm so excited about having fun later on tonight. Wow, who new there was a promising future out there, hehehe just kidding, but there was a new hottie. Wow, can't say I'm sprung don't wanna be, the jury is still out though on what to do about all this crazy life stuff.

A month and a day before i leave for Mexico
2 months and 2 days before Camp
4 months and 5 days before I move into my own house

Wow, I'm finally gonna be out on my own, whoa, camp believe that one.

Must go to Spanish Grammar and Composition class now, fun times we're watchin movies today :-D

I 85 South Bound

Today's been a heck of a day, I had a Dr. appt and found out I've gotta sinus infection, YUCK no wonder I've felt so bad lately. She filled out my forms for Camp and for Mexico, gave me stuff for my allergies and a new medicine for my migraines because they're gettin worse and more frequent. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So after all this I have to go to the bank, get gas, run back home to get my lunch outt the frig, and get in to work. I was plannin to get there by 11, but other things interfered with that plan, umm we'll just say, total hottie :-D anyway, not going any further so don't even ask, unless of course you, Dejauii, read this before you come back to work and I get a chance to tell you. WOW!!! You'd be so proud ::wink wink:: Anyway I hope that you get to feelin better.

OHHHHHHHHHHH I got all the classes I wanted except for one and that's because my GPA wasn't high enough to get in it, but it will be after this semester or after Mexico. So my schedule for Fall is as follows, Tuesdays and Thursdays French 2001 9:30-10:45, Tuesdays Foreign Language Teaching in Elementary Schools 5:30-8:00, Wednesdays Hispanic Lit and Culture 5:30-8:00, and Thursdays Hispanic Film and Lit 5:30-8:00, how great of a schedule is that, I think it's awesome no Monday or Friday Classes. WOW -- it's even better because now I can work super hard during the day so I won't be hurting for money while living in the house. PS we're lookin for a 4th roommate, anyone for the takin? It'd be $200 a month + utilities and there's a pool.

Well, I must get outta the quadrant of WASTE now and get back to work. Have a great day everyone

Yeah

So camp this summer is going to be so exciting --- I'm the are ya'll ready for this


The HEAD FEMALE COUNSELOR, how awesome is that, that's so much responsibility but heck yeah i'm ready for it, i think it's going to ROCK MY FACE OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh yeah you girl/guys the staff at camp ROCKS!!!!!!!!! I know some of you are going to have a problem with this -- do me a favor get some balls and tell me about it, don't go talkin about it to other folks, cause that just pisses me off...............

Wilmore 2

Ok so some great towns I saw driving to and from Wilmore -- Oneida, that was weird cause it's where Marty is from it was kinda haunting though, Preachersville, never thought I'd pass thru a town that actually had Preacher in the name of it, wow totally unexpected, Crab Orchard -- where a horse and buggie went a lil crazy and almost made me wreck.

Spring Break was great and I really miss it, honestly I never thought I'd love to be away, but it was wonderful. Filled with great converstations with everyone around me, I was surrounded by people who are confident in God, and where they're going in life. Only thing is haven't heard from one person, who I wrote about from since I got back, I thought that we were actually going to become friends -- NOTHING MORE -- but I would like to stop feelin like I don't matter. But enough of that soap box. You know who you are and I know that it was flattering and all that to read about yourself in my journal, but come around call don't leave me hanging, your Ale 8 is just sittin in my trunk, too good to keep gettin hot.

Tonight I'm going to Z's, which used to be called Spyro's, to party with the sister's of Alpha Gamma Delta, a sorority here on campus. I know it's going to be so much fun. I'll post about it tomorrow.

Not much else is going on, I went to Atlanta Temple's Softball Team's game on Tuesday night, wow goooooooooo Jeremiah hittin your frist homerun EVER!!! That was great, it made all that freezing worth it, right?

Well, I'm waitin on my letter from camp about the position I have been offered, Aunt Jenn, was like I hope you accept it, but NO ONE will tell me what it is....................I mean I feel like a 5 year old waiting Santa's arrival on Christmas Eve, wow, never thought camp would have me this concerned, I just hope that it's a job that I can actually do and not fail at.

I don't look at last summer as a failure, just a learning experience. I mean I look back and especailly when I was at Asbury, all the awesome people that I didn't get to know because I was too busy learning about someone else, I was kinda preoccupied. I realize that possibly 2 years ago I gave up the only person I've truly ever fallen in love with an been loved back, but I can't do anything about it, I ruined it well more like my lack of understanding ruined it, but I'm so glad we're friends and we can talk. Wow, I really miss you. "Don't know how you do what you do, Baby I'm amazed by you" You never cease to amaze me and you always have a positive outlook even if things aren't going your way. Quick run down, You'll always have a place in my heart, you are my frist love. So people say you always have a special place, but you kinda stole the whole thing and only left a fragment to be taken by someone else, which is broken and gone. Feelings not so much love but wanting to learn how again.

God Bless