The Passion of The Christ

Today I'm going to see the Passion with some peeps from work -- I will write a review about it later on.

PS I FINALLY GOT MY SNOW YIPPEEEEE IT WAS SO MUCH FUN--

Haiti

Haiti's on my mind a lot, but i have a lot of questions -- if i could right now i'd go there and help the kids that i left there. I look for their faces every time something about Haiti comes on on the news, i've searched the internet looking for them -- but worry has consumed me and fear of the worst that might happen to them -- they are so young....yeah i'd totally go there tomorrow i'd leave everything i have here and go -- just waiting on THE WORD---

Haiti

This morning on my way to work, it was snowing it was very beautiful. I was stuck in traffic and I got the chance to just watch the snow fall. WOW!!! I really needed that this morning.

Anyway when I got to work my mom called and was like Jamie have you heard about all the unrest in Haiti, I did mission's work there summer of 2002, and i was like no, so I went to google and searched it, I came up with this link among many, funny thing is though, I know the guy in the picture. I met him while I was in Port-au-Prince during that summer. WOW, that's totally a God thing that I happened to pull that website up. He's not the one that's hurt, he's the one in the blue shirt with stripes. I was like oh my gosh I know that guy, whoa. Anyway, I must get back to work, gotta have my scripts finished and in the mail before I leave today :-D

The Song I've needed to hear for months

Rascal Flatts
I’m Moving On

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived that I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on

???Confused.....Misunderstood???

So I've been hanging out with this person, I won't mention his name, but I thought we were cool and could just hang -- but now I'm not so sure. Like I think he's a totally awesome, impressive guy and love him to death AS A FRIEND ......

........but truth be told last spring 2003 I had a class with him like every single day and I had the humungi crush on him, like i mean i was totally into him -- and i thought maybe he might be a little bit interested, but it wasn't much at all.

Anyway -- we started talking again (like the friend kind) and I really love being around him, so how can I tell if he's not digging hanging around me? I have no freakin clue. Like I don't want him to think that I have to be around him, but I just enjoy it...does that make sense?

Did I mention he's like totally GQ x's 150 like he's all FINE, if you know what I mean!!!! Like I really hope he doesn't read this because it would be all kinds of embrrassing...but it's not like I've got another crush on him -- I just like being with him and him being there beside me. It's such a safe place for me -- I've always felt better when someone's been there beside me.

Like I know that there's not a chance in hell that we would ever get together so that's how I can say that I don't have a crush on him cause I know nuttin will happen.

So today was visitation day -- it was fun so crowded, i'm so happy that people are interested in west georgia. I loved it, but now i'm so totally tired.

This weekend Saturday was Lori's wedding, my roommate from last spring 2003, she was soooo beautiful she's looked like Barbie. WHOA, I'm so happy for her and Jeff.

So we had DYB Gospel Arts and God really has his hand in things, totally and it's amazing, we're going to Bless people I hope and I really believe we will because God is the center of the Jesus Walk.

I bought a ring with my birthday money, it's so beautiful, and it was super on sale $125 on sale for $30, amazed at the big bargin shopper I am, yeah so was I.

Sometimes I look back on life and I see how beautiful it was and it just makes me sad about how it's ending up -- but I have to keep my head up and say self you're great and someone will be lucky to have you one day, stop rushing, but everywhere I look there's tiny reminders of the past no matter how hard I work to forget them, it's like a haunting that won't go away and I can't run from....I've started have bad dreams again -- not to where the man was touching me, but yelling at me and asking me why i was even thinkin about the 'other' job this summer and i'm really scared to go now cause i've never worked anywhere but camp, so hummm what do i do, i know that God will give me guidance. but tis the waiting part that kills.

well, i'm going to do homework have a good night.

Manic Monday

Ok so I had to do this assignment for my into to media and technology class on this website.

Last night, whoa totally weird -- i get this mysterious im -- and i just really can't believe that who it said it was it was, if that makes any kinda sense in the english language at all. Which I don't think it did, but anyway.


So I've got a totally packed weekend. My roommate from last spring is getting married on Saturday oh my gosh -- i'm so freakin happy for her I'd sing at her wedding if i thought for a second i could actually sing. LORI, girl I wish you the best of luck and will always be here if you need me.


Hummmmmm what else to talk about -- I really have been thinkin alot about this offer at the day camp in dalton, I think it would be good for me, i mean i'd have the weekends off, could do a lil bit of traveling, could totally hang out with my friends from dalton and ringgold during the summer -- how awesome would that be guys? Totally I know. But there's one tiny problem -- could I handle living up there? I'm not sure but I know that if that's where I'm suppose to be then God is going to give me my strength.

My sister suggested to me tonight -- in a nice playing but serious sorta way that I might need a to go to the doctor and find out about gettin on a happy pill, because she thinks that I can be totally too mean, and honestly i can be, but i want to be honest and if i have to be mean to be honest then that's what I'm going to do, you know what I'm saying?

I mean maybe that's why it seems i'm all alone right, the only thing that makes sense to me right now is my job -- at least i know the people there arent' being fake and really do enjoy my company. Anyway -- i'm not askin for pitty friendships or anything like that, I just would for once like to know who my true friends are and who are just going to put me on the back burner to scorch?

Life Questions??????????
Is happiness really all it's cut out to be? or is it a figment of our imaginations, like we grab it up from somewhere and make it our personal reality?

Friends, which is better -- one who puts you on the back burner, stabs you in the back, or choses someone else over you?

Love, isn't really true, not even true love is flawless, you still end up heartbroken at some point and time either sooner or later in the relationship, very interesting points i'm bringing up tonight, hummmmmmmm, what a lil thinkin will do for a bright southern girl. HAHAHA


Sometimes I feel like people just want me to be the invisible friend -- like they only want me there when no one else is around and that really sucks -- but hey that's life right, i've gotta learn to suck it up and go on?

that's right -- you've just gotta suck it up and move right on, holdin your head up high and don't ever let the puckfaces know they hurt you.

Well, I gotta get to bed now, it's going to be a long day at work -- i gotta have the other 10 scripts written by next monday and tryin to be creative in a 2nd language is really hard sometimes. HAHAHA, but
I hope you have a great night and I'll talk to you pronto -- maybe holla

Fun Times

Ok, so last week was really good.

On Wednesday Night I went to the CFOT and kept Aubrey and Hannah while Matt and Becca were on Ward Mission. The girls were so much fun. I can't wait till I get down there again.

Thursday was good as well -- but there was this horrible wreck on I-20 East, and they had to close West bound as well. The truck hit a bridge and then exploded, it was so bad. Pray for the family of the driver.

Friday was really good, I didn't have spanish class, so I got to go into work early and have lunch in the breakroom with the table. We had the funniest converstation, it was about SOUTHERN dialect. How much fun was that.

Friday night, I went to Kendrick's prep rally @ school. It was fun. Jayden really enjoyed the cheerleaders.

Saturday when I got up hahaha---mom wasn't feelin so hot, so we chilled for a little while and then I called Jenn up and was like what are you doing. So then I went to the mall and we chilled. Then, we were leaving and Rashad decided to go with me, I was really needed some food so we went to Chili's, and oh my gosh Rashad ate this humungi burger and I was like boo are you sure you can handle that, hahaha.

SATURDAY WAS ALSO LINDSAY'S BIRTHDAY-- HEHEHE TOO BAD SHE WASN'T IN TOWN. I'VE GOT A SURPRISE FOR HER!!!!

Ok so after Chili's Kendrick had a basketball game so we went to it -- and man those Ref's were really makin me MAD, callin bad on my baby, arughhh. Alright, then it was time to come back to school because I to get some work done. HAHAHA

So back in Carrollton -- Keia and I went and rolled her boyfriend's room, then we went out to dinner with Leigh Ann and she is totally rockin. I love her to death. And she is totally the greatest person. Then we came back to the room called up Quay, went and rolled Keia's boyfriend's car, HAHAHA right in front of public saftey, man that was the crazyiest thing I think I've done my whole college career.

So we were chillin in the room just watchin The Best Man and our neighbor's knocked on our door and wanted to chill with us -- so we watched the movie, then put on some slow jams and were dancin, oh my gosh it was so much fun I haven't laughed that hard in so long.

Anyway so now it's sunday, and I've gotta shower, so to walmart do spanish homework and french homework and i'm bakin cookies either today or tomorrow at my sister's house.