So this weekend was hard. I had gospel arts practice and a lotta people were asking me about Marty. It's hard to talk about the love of your life when he's not here anymore. Thank God that there was only youth there. ARGH. In The Salvation Army someone else really is always tryin or gettin into your business. That's really what I dislike about it. Everything else is awesome!!!! My Uncle Tom and Aunt Jen are our new youth leaders and have been a totally Godsent blessing in my life. I don' t know what I would do without them here. They are always there to support me. My mom is doing better this weekend, and she's evening thinking about buying a new car yippee. GO MOM.

Here's a psychology question -- how do you break a pairing of a 2-year old? You can't Jayden everytime he sees me, asks 'where's marty at?' 'can we go get marty?' 'i wanna see marty.' Do you have any idea how freakin' hard it is to get him to understand that Marty left me. You can't. But eventually it won't hurt so bad when Jayden asks where marty is. Wait a minute, what the heck am I thinking, it will always hurt because of how much i am in love with marty. I LOVE YOU STILL.

I wrote a poem the other day, i think it's pretty good, i hope all my grammar and stuff is correct because it's in spanish. I'll post it later.