So have you felt like you lost everything? If so then you probably know what I feel like. I still haven't heard from Marty after he told me to decide what I wanted and would put up with in our relationship, well I decided I want us to stay together -- I told him this in a letter last Thursday I only called on friday to see if he had gotten it. I haven't heard from him since. I guess this is his way of blocking me out, I never knew that I could love someone the way I love him. And if God wouldn't have told me this summer that Marty was my soul mate, I'd probably be out somewhere loosin my religion. But I'm not. Marty I don't know if you'll read this, probably not, but YOU ARE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, I WILL LOVE YOU FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.

Anyway, the rest of my life has been just as crazy. I'm having a really hard time in school, it's really hard to stay focused and I really don't wanna do anything, but sleep. And that's totally not good. Well, I've gotta go study for my Astronomy Test in the morning. I wish right now I was anywhere but here.